The cold facts of numbers, the anonymity of the number, the
nice neat final total at the bottom of the ledger sheet, an integer in a
rectangle which sanitizes the record. The record that was paid for in blood and lost dreams. Though I am loathed to quote him, Stalin said you
kill 100 people it is murder; you kill a million people it is a statistic.
Regimental histories are statistical summaries of a unit’s service record. Valuable, to be sure, to the historian and
the genealogist; however what about those men the numbers represent?
View in Arlington National Cemetery, ca. 1860 - ca. 1865 (source NARA)
My
sister Cheri and I were talking on Skype the other day; I told her about a
possible lead to tracking down photographs of our Civil War ancestors. She checked one of the databases from her My
Favorites list and came up with a PDF file from the Internet Library Archives. The file, “Civil War Camps At Readville… Camp
Meigs Playground & Fowl Meadow Reservation Preliminary Historic Data
Compilation,” was a report commissioned by the MDC to preserve the historic
recorded of one of Massachusetts largest Civil War training camps. Included in the report were abstracts of
“Massachusetts in the Army and Navy During the War of 1861-65.” On pages 161 and 162 are the statistical summaries for KIA by engagement, read on line version.
We
perused the report for 2nd Mass Cav. Vol. Regiment and the 3rd
Mass Cav. Vol. regiment. At the end of
the statistical summaries for each regiment, a summary of Casualties by
Engagement (KIA) was listed. Across the
top of the page from left to right listed the companies. Running down the left hand side of page were
the engagements in chronological order. For
some companies there is just a dash other companies a number 1 or 2 is
listed.
I
pointed out to my sister the date of October 19, 1864 and the column for
company M. In that small little
rectangle was the number 1, I told her that number 1 is Merrill Beal our
ancestor. There was dead silence. Cheri did not say anything for a moment or
two. On the following page was the
statistical summary for the 3rd Mass Cav. Vol. Regiment. I told Cheri to scroll down to May 15-18
Yellow Bayou engagement. The column for
company H had a 1 in the small little rectangle. “That is George Beal,” I said. Again silence for a moment. Cheri final said, “That’s not right. The names Merrill Beal and George Beal should
be there not a number.” I know what she
meant.
The number does not tell the story
of the person. That is why I want to recreate the lives of my
ancestors. Tell their stories through
their eyes. Tell what they experienced
so that when someone wants to know who was that number it is no longer a
statistic but a person. A person who had
hopes and dreams. A person who
interrupted his life to fight and die for a cause he believed in. A
person who left family behind. A living
breathing human being who had people that loved him and prayed for the day he would
returned. That day never came. No it is much more than an integer in a rectangle.
Sources:
Photogaph: National Archives and Records Administrations
Sources:
Photogaph: National Archives and Records Administrations
Record Group 111:Records of the Office of the Chief Signal
Officer, 1860 - 985Series:
Mathew Brady Photographs of Civil War-Era
Personalities and Scenes, 1921 - 1940
New York Public Library Internet Archives: